Tuesday, 28 July 2015

28th July

It's funny how something can just hit you out of nowhere, something that you thought you had dealt with, something you thought you could safely move on from in your life, and then the tiniest little thing just hits you like a tonne of bricks and once again you're trapped in that numbness, in the pain, in that moment all over again with no escape.

How can things change in the blink of an eye, in the space of one breathe? How can a whole world be changed in the same space of time that it takes the second hand of a clock to move from 34 to 35, from 1 to 2?

People expect you to be okay, to be able to cope because you're an 'adult' but is it normal to get frustrated with where you're at in your life, to want what others have got? Just to have some purpose or direction. 

You've got no concentration or attention, can't even focus on your favourite film, so you just sit wondering why every single time you let someone in, you give them the world, that it's still not enough, and you're just left there once again, questioning your own worth, if there even is any value.

Do you become a tough, uncaring person with no time for people, or continue to try and support people and just get it thrown back in your face? 

What's the point of being a nice person in today's world, a world so polluted with hatred for each other and the world itself, when even the person that you are is becoming tainted?

No comments:

Post a Comment